I was listening to and AC/DC song today (yes, I pulled out that old collection of music I listened to through out my teenage years, from which I am only now emerging at 27) and suddenly thought, "Why do I like this music?" I tried desperately to find an answer and I somehow could not grasp upon anything logical or that made sense. So, I said to myself, "Just trust yourself." Then, on a completely different plane of my mental expanse, a line from the movie "High Fidelity" popped into my head. So, here I post it for you.

"Should I bolt every time I get that feeling in my gut when I meet someone new? Well, I've been listening to my gut since I was 14 years old, and frankly speaking, I've come to the conclusion that my guts have shit for brains."

Another line comes to mind from the movie As Good As It Gets.

Carol:
OK, we all have these terrible stories to get over, and you ---

Melvin:
It's not true. Some have great stories, pretty stories that take place at lakes with boats and friends and...noodle salad. Just no one in this car. But, a lot of people, that's their story. Good times, noodle salad. What makes it so hard is not that you had it bad, but that you're that pissed that so many others had it good.

Haha! Have you ever had one of those times where everything just seems to keep floating along and one never feels they have every been getting anything done? I can't understand why my motivation for getting ahead is at an all-time low.

Well, I woke up this morning and knew that time was a predator. Heard this one before? Let me see if I get this right...time is a predator that stalks us all of our lives and then finally makes the kill. Or the opposite is: time is a companion that goes with us on the journey and reminds us to cherish every moment because they will never come again.

I suppose I can get a little sappy at times, but what is sappiness? It is a concept created by the negative people of this world. If we just said what we thought without worry of being attacked after saying it, I think the world would be a better place to live in. Ah, well. I will stick to my personal guns and not let those outside of my heart to destroy something I have worked so hard to build.

Well, another revamp. I think I have completely redone my personal web site over and over again. I estimate at least four times with completely different designs in the last six months. Maybe I do it because my life is still a work in progress.

Lives should always be works in progress. Never stop learning and never decide to quit trying to figure it all out.

I don't know why, but I have been feeling not overly joyous. I have been going out and making friends with all kinds of people that I haven't done for some time. It makes me happy when I am out, but I think that the loneliness is getting to me.

I have been keeping to myself a lot, both inside and out. I don't say too much when I am with people, at least, not things that matter. Not much seems to matter to me anymore.

Am I spilling into a depression? I hate that...but here is a song that I have been playing a lot.

You know how people are always fearing that they will not "get over" someone. Sometimes it can be a silly and limiting condition, but I think it is very important to still hold a piece of another in your heart -- no matter what happens. I never let that kind of thing get in the way of my future and I hope you don't either.

But, this is a web page I did one year ago. I will never get over this wonderful girl.

I also think of this song when I think of her. I will never forget...I cry about her a lot. I can't believe it has been a whole year. I still cry even so long after she left my life.

(6:55pm) When I was at work today, my boss went this site to check it out and he said that he got bored! Excellent! Isn't that what this site is all about!? He also made comments about my "sleeping at work" crack...where the hell do you think I learned my bad habits!? Muahahaha...now, on to more serious things.

(6:15am) Very early in the morning...too early. But, now that I have put in a forum, I will invite people to come and tell me what they think of the website. It is 6:15am and I need to shower and go to work.

Wakey Wakey...(scratch scratch)...

I got the sleep I needed. I didn't have to do much to get it either...my body told me that I needed rest, so, I fell asleep at the computer last night and then made my way into bed by crawling across the floor. I did pause a few times here and there, but when I reached my pillow -- poof -- I was in dreamy dream land.

I feel rested this morning...! No sleeping at work anymore! ;-) Hahha.