I have been reviewing my life over the past few days and wondering what exactly I have been doing. And I can sum it up in a couple of things.

I have discovered that I like Bruce Springsteen's music because it talks about the past a whole lot. For example, this song tells about how people tend to talk about the past a lot without any thought for the future. The eventual discussion about the past and the desire to return to the past.

But, recently I have found that this song describes me now. There are special people in my life now that I can count on and love. And it is true...better days are shining through.

"Lyrics! Dude, recite them some lyrics."

Well, I have had a few more songs running around my head. But, I have been unable to get them out of my head on onto the web page. Well, I suppose I could cough up something. But, maybe tomorrow. I have realized just what kind of eighties kid I am. There are so many things that I remember, especially how awkward it was growing up. How many times did I not ever feel like I was "with it" or "cool".

The transition between high school and university was interesting. Many people spoke to me without so much as a hesitation. All those people who refused to speak with me in high school were my friends all of a sudden.

It is really quite amazing what fear and uncertainty can do. Tres weirdness.

What a pointless and silly entry. But, I am sticking by it.

Today, I learned that my name is really Shane Berkley. I was at work and a very important memo went out to the entire company and my name was so incredibly wrong. I asked them about this and they said that three people had reviewed it.

Talk about being reminded that I am loved at work.

Well, it was a busy weekend and it was incredibly awesome! My apologies for not writing in my on-line diary here -- I am sure there are many people out there in shock and suffering from withdrawal. But, I took a short jaunt up the island here and visited some places I had not been in quite some time. I saw a parade and also had the chance to remember what Christmas is all about. Oh, yes, I also checked out a play that was just the best thing I have seen in quite some time!

But, today, I was thinking about women. Women in my past experience are always complicated for many unseen reasons. I talked to a few friends and found the opinions about relationships were all over the place. No one seemed to agree on anything! So, after making sure I was entirely confused, I suddenly thought of a line in a movie. (Yes, a Kevin Smith movie!)

SILENT BOB:
You know, there's a million fine looking women in the world, dude. But they don't all bring you lasagna at work. Most of 'em just cheat on you.

So, there you have it...when you find that right person and you see them doing things for you...just because...you have found the right one. There are so many other things, of course, but if that extra mile is reached...it can be magic.

I heard a radio ad today. It was beautiful.

It was a man telling his marriage vows to his bride. The vows were nice but it was how they ended that caught my attention. He ended with:

"In your fear...
In your confusion...
Even when you don't know me anymore...
I will never leave you."

My grandmother passed away as result of Alzheimer�s disease. I miss her.