A number of months ago, I experienced a very low point in my life.  I don't think I had ever experienced something quite like it before and I was glad for it to be over.  

I gave up.

I didn't give up on my life.  I gave up on the world's life.  I gave up on you, gentle reader, and I hope you can find the wisdom to forgive me.  I was weak and unable to cope for several hours.

I do offer some context.  What started me down this path of utter dispair in regards to the current status of the world was I had read too many articles about how the world and how it is going to "Hell In An X-Wing Fighter" and I decided that it was time for me to just wash my hands of the world.  I didn't mean it.

I do remember having a brief conversation with myself.

"That's it!  We'll never learn.  It won't matter anyway.  The world will just buck us off the sadle when it feels like it.  The universe will unfold as it should and if that means we're not part of that then so be it."

That night, the universe fought back and kicked me in the ass.  It was one of those nights where you catch yourself reading or watching something that you wouldn't normally do.  You may even pause to ask yourself why you're doing it.  This particular evening, I found myself watching The Hour and who should appear but David Suzuki.

The interview was typical of that show.  There was gentle conversation about what Mr. Suzuki was doing and, of course, there was talk about the environment.  I was feeling quite self justified that Suzuki was telling stories about how he had been drinking out of a plastic cup and some onlooker said that he shouldn't be considering who he was and what he stood for. 

Ha!  I thought.  You jerk!  You drink from bottled water too!  You dime store hood!  It was then that a question was asked about what people should do if they are feeling tremendous apathy about the universe and the world.  I was expecting some kind of: "Come join us.  You can help heal the world."

Nope.

Suzuki became very serious and said: "Go be that way.  Do what you need to do but get the hell out of my way.  I am not perfect but I am doing my part.  If you don't want to help, then stand aside and let me by."

Thank the world for David Suzuki.  If it were not for him, I would proably be still feeling the way I did all those months ago.  Have a great Earth Day and, Mr. Suzuki, I am sorry.  I am doing my part too.